I just wanted to say how glad I am to have found your website! Something like this has been needed for years!
As an ex-JW myself I have had some of these same questions and issues,and they are still an issue at times,as I still have family that are JW's.
I highly reccomend the books written by Ray Franz. They have a wealth of information on the organization and are very encouraging,besides being an "eye-opener" for many-incl.me!
Most average JW's have no idea what the watchtower org is doing,has done, or is all about!