It was 1976 and the end of the world didn't come in 1975 like the Watchtower expected. Before 1975 there was intense pressure on Jehovah's Witnesses to pioneer, and devote 'the last day's' to Jehovah. Many of my dear friends lost everything because of their trust in the Watchtower. This is one of many failed prophecies. It confirmed factual evidence from Watchtower publications that their teachings do not have divine inspiration and they are not infallible. Yet they claim to be God's organization and the only true religion. How can that be I thought? See The False Prophet
Around the same time I also noticed that Watchtower 'truths' can change. The truth should never change. The truth should always be true. It became evident to me that 'unity' of beliefs was far more important than the truth. It was obvious that what the Watchtower called 'the truth' was simply the opinions of the Governing Body at this point in time.
As a Jehovah's Witness, I was expected to obey all their commands as if they came from Jehovah God himself. However tomorrow 'the truth' could be different. This did not sit right with me. Why? Because if the 'truth' keeps changing or flip flopping back and forth, they are not 'truths' and they are not from God.
Decades later I found out that the word 'truth' is one of many innocent looking mind control words used by the organization to control Jehovah's Witnesses and keep them loyal. The fact of the matter is that the Watchtower doesn't have the truth and other belief systems are not 'false'. All the Watchtower has is strong beliefs about what is right and wrong. That doesn't mean their beliefs are correct or 'the truth'. All it means is they have opinions today. And tomorrow their opinions about what God requires could be different.
Watchtower writers and the Governing Body of Jehovah's Witnesses have opinions and interpretations of the Bible just like any other religion has. However an honest religion would be honest. They would not disguise their interpretation of God's will is 'the truth' and imply that everyone who disagrees is rebelling against God.
If you are a Jehovah's Witness, read what the Watchtower says about having no divine inspiration and you'll see that being 'in the truth' has absolutely nothing to do pleasing God. It has everything to do with controlling Jehovah's Witnesses and keeping them loyal to the Watchtower religion.
An even bigger issue for me was my unhappiness. My marriage was falling apart in spite of reading all those Watchtower publications on how to have a happy family life. My conscience would no longer let me go from door to door telling people how happy they'd be as a Jehovah's Witness. It wasn't true for me.
Since many of my relatives and all my friends were Jehovah's Witnesses, I didn't want to get disfellowshipped. I stopped going from door to door, and I stopped going to meetings, hoping that I would just fade into the woodwork. But that didn't happen. Why? Because my wife was a 'happy' Jehovah's Witness. She had the same marriage troubles I had, but she had no problem going from door to door selling the 'happy family life' book. Her conscience didn't bother her at all.
Not seeing any way to repair my unhappy marriage, I separated from my wife and we eventually divorced. My local congregation saw the need to disfellowship one of us because, in their opinion divorce should not happen among Jehovah's Witnesses. Someone needed to be 'blamed' for 'wrong doing' to vindicate Jehovah's name and keep his organization clean.
Since my ex wife continued to go to meetings and from door to door, it was obvious to the elders that I was to blame and I was the 'wrong doer'. The problem was, they couldn't find any good reason to disfellowship me. Thus the 'witch hunt' had begun.