Most Jehovah's Witnesses are afraid of being disfellowshipped. I admit that at the time, I didn't want to be disfellowshipped either. However it felt great to finally hear the words 'you are now disfellowshipped'. YES!!!
I'm a free spirit and independent thinker who felt trapped in a religion that I was not happy with. I sacrificed my education and put my life on hold serving Jehovah until 1975. When armageddon didn't come like everyone expected, there was complete silence.
Many of my closest friends gave up their homes, bank accounts, and full time jobs to serve Jehovah full time in the 'last days' before armageddon. But not a word was spoken by anyone when armageddon didn't come. That's how much fear Jehovah's Witnesses have to express their disappointments and doubts.
I knew I belonged to a false religion that didn't have God's backing because all their prophecies for the end of the world failed. I had been deceived and I wanted my freedom.
I left in mind, body, and spirit months before I was disfellowshipped. I was making a new life for myself outside of the organization and it felt great to be free at last. No more meetings, going door to door, studying the Watchtower, pretending to believe everything the Watchtower says, and no more being a hypocrite. I was now free to worship Jehovah directly and attend any church I wanted to.
Being disfellowshipped made it official. I was officially free at last! It was like ending a bad marriage and now after the divorce your ex's family won't speak with you. So what?
It didn't take me a long to make new friends and find happiness. The hardest part was learning what normal people do, such as celebrating holidays, voting, joining clubs, getting involved in my community, etc.
The other uncomfortable part was running into Jehovah's Witnesses in stores, restaurants, etc. They would no longer speak with me. No big deal. I greeted everyone with love and thanked God that he set me free from a mean spirited religion that would teach something as evil as shunning. The fact that Jehovah's Witnesses would no longer talk with me was added confirmation that I was on the right path. I knew Jehovah would bless me for my faithfulness to him and I was not disappointed.